I was just thinking how after I had stopped my wanderings and had locked myself in a cube in corporate America I used to sit and, sometimes for hours, daydream about swaying palm trees and ancient temples, minarets and thunderous waves. It was a feeling not unlike those I had as a child trapped in a classroom, wishing I was on the playground or off adventuring with my cousin Paul.
I don't do that so much anymore, hardly ever in fact. I wonder what is happening. I wonder if I don't need to daydream like that because I'm settled now, or if I have been "institutionalized". All this normalcy was never normal to me before- is there a universal preferable state in which man should exist? I don't know, but I do know that I find it somewhat disturbing that I am no longer disturbed by the fact that I not only am not in an Arabian bazaar (soukh) but no longer feel the overpowering need to get to one (or a Polynesian beach, or a Korean mountaintop, or...)
I am changing into an unchanging person, and I don't know if it should scare me or not.